Hi im 90 and 5’4 i had to eat more than I usually do b/c i needed energy for an audition.. but i didnt make it so now im depressed and feel fat.. Please help me. I run very long distance 4 times a week and stregth train then i have master ballet on days i dont run

I had Breakfast: Instant oatmeal with fruitloops on top

Lunch: A boiled egg and a mini Whole wheat dinner roll with some apple and grape slices

Then i had a non fat latte

THen i audition for A ballet summer intensive that i didnt get itno 90 minutes of master ballet and lots of stress

Dinner: a six inch subway sub with a turkey salad (no dressing)

I didnt deserve any of this food i feel like! I didnt make the audition and i usally work out alot more than this like run Alot of miles (not putting how much i run, for the safety of people who have eating disorders reading this). But i had to eat for energy for that audition that i did so well in but Didnt make it!!!!! Ugh im so upset! did i eat too much and how many calories is this!

About three months ago, I began transitioning to the raw food diet. At first, I was strictly raw… I just kinda threw myself in there, and managed to upold it for about a month. Since then, I’ve kinda fallen off the wagon, though.

My biggest problem was being hungry all the time. At first, I was dealing just fine… It seems, though, that my body will plateau and fluctuate by 3 or 4 pounds (this is in general, not in the raw transition) and as soon as I start to dip below that, I feel insatiably hungry until I load up on food and go back up to my "regular" weight. I hit that plateau about two weeks after going raw, and managed to stay raw- although overindulging- for another few weeks before starting to re-suppliment my diet with cooked grains, ect.

I have had problems in the past with eating disorders. When I hit these plateaus and become ravenous all the time, I get very depressed. When I can keep my food intake steady, I manage ok, but when I start pigging out and eating everything in sight, I tend to "crash" and eat more because of these problems with food that I’ve had in the past.

The main reason that I started putting cooked food back into my diet was protein… I felt that a big reason that I was hungry all the time was because I was lacking it. (Has anyone heard about the Blood Type Diet? About a week ago I was doing some reading, and came across information on it… If the theories that it presents are correct, then as an O- protein should be a major part of my diet…)

Does anyone have any suggestions for moving past this initial phase of detox and getting back in the raw swing? I started taking a greens suppliment, to make sure that I was getting enough. I know that nuts have a good amount of protein, but sometimes they make me sick.

Are there any side-effects that I should expect from this detoxing phase, and anything that I can do to ease the transition?