I am 19, weigh 125 pounds, and I’m 5ft 11. I been trying to gain weight my whole life and I tried everything in the book… worked out for 3 months, ate healthy, and that didn’t work. Tried eating junk food (all fatty foods) and tried eating energy bards and drinks like ensure and boost and that didn’t work. I’m also going through a lot of mental issues… I got no one to talk to but family… Jesus or god never help me with my problems… I use to pray every night for them to help me gain weight and be happy… and it never worked. I been a Christian all my life but I finally figured out Jesus doesn’t care about me or anyone else in this world or there wouldn’t be no wars, deaths, ect, ect. But I discovered something new… something that might be able to help me… I been reading a lot about Satanism and following Satan has helped people with my problem and has helped others with different problems… I dunno what to do…
Should I give my soul to Satan? Is there anyone who does follow Satan and can tell me what benefits I will get from him?
Why does god make some people perfect looking… and give them good bodies… when he turns around and gives fat people and skinny people nothing but shame and hatred for the whole lives? Why does god let people suffer…?
God is love? Why would I live for a god that never did nothing for me and never answered any of my prayers? F*ck your god.
Like I said dumb@ss, I did all that when I hired a personal trainer to help me with my problem… I did it for 3 whole months and didn’t see the slightest change. I was born with a curse… I just know it….
Yeah your right, I learned to accept there is nothing I can do to get fit… and god gave me this body for a reason you say? What reason is that? For me to feel like sh1t for the rest of my life? Why would he make fat people fat from birth? Is there a reason for that?
I did see about 4 doctors, 3 of them were specialists… I got a tube shoved in me and I got a blood test, nothing was wrong with me, completely healthy they said. They also said theres nothing I can do, just the way I was born…

I’m doing a 5 day fast of nothing but water and green tea, and then after I’ll only have raw fruits and veggies with roasted unsalted nuts, green tea and fresh fruit and veg juice. Has anyone else done this diet? From what I’ve read it’s healthy, fast, and something I can do potentially for the rest of my life, and I’m not looking to get talked out of it. I just want to hear other peoples experiences with it. Also, I know I’m going to cheat by allowing coffee with non-dairy creamer and Stevia (or Splenda), will this totally throw things out of whack? I know at least initially, I’m going to need my coffee, it’s my one concession. Thanks.
I won’t be having the coffee coffee during the fast.